when im listening to stuff like that, theres an indescribable feeling, im gonna try to explain it. its like it what i want to be, but it can only be achieved over time? and im not patient at all. i wanna dye my hair, make more kandi, get cooler clothes, etc. and i feel cozy, but kinda like uhmmm jealous i guess at the same time? idfk how to explain it, its just annoying. i want to move into a good town, where i have friends that understand me, and i can actually be myself! go shopping, play games together, express. GRAHH i just dont know what tf is happening :(