My apologies.... I really apologize for not making/posting on social medias on last 3 days.... Well that because of many reasons and one of them is..... "Depression" let me explain:

I've got a hard period on my life, yeah I meant depression, like every night or day, I will just start crying and remembering how I was happy in the past, but for now I really think that I'm just piece of crap, the happy period has ended, except for reasons of my hard depression...

Firstly, school stuffs. I got depressed on March 11st, the period of exams, I was not ready to do exams anymore, like I lost motivation to do anything in my life, not only that, I was also thinking of end myself and get out of the life, which is was the best solution to end my future self.. Except when I get bad marks in a lot of subjects, like tf? I just studied so hard and then I get such as bad marks, one of them is F on my 2nd favorite subject, like my reaction is very dead, the problem is on that time no one has cheered me up, only 1 friend (not for my same class) others are just keep using me and asking about my marks to bully me and more... For that day, I hated thing named school and studies, but my teachers cheered me up and told me that I can get better marks next time.. As they encouraged me to, ig this is not the end of world right? It's just my classmates wants to make me feel jealous by telling me "I gOT BeTtEr ThAn YoU- 🤓" that's why I always compare myself to others and never feel happy... Thanks to them, I really tasted the depression...

Secondly, the irl reasons. It's private reasons so I won't tell them... But still it happens until now, but I'm trying to fix that problem.... May I can? Ofc not..

Lastly, Losing Friends. And Except My Only BestFriend, I was always chat, hang out, and tell him about my problems, he made me so happy and to trust myself, but sadly. This won't be forever since he just replaced me with new person for no reason, each time I ask him, he just ignored me and made himself offline, while he's online everyday, that's one of my reasons of depression... But the good news is... I got a new BestFriend!! Hopefully It won't Happend to same thing as my previous one...

I've suffered so hard... Everyone hates me, everyone doesn't care, everyone felt jealous, they just want to make me a character with no importance.. like npc objects, until yesterday, I finally laugh after long time (almost month). I felt like I still have 2nd chance to fix anything.... I hope so..... :<