Ok, this might be my last post on the platform, I guess.. I gonna quit for good...

Before saying no whyyy, just chill out, calm down. And read the post carefully as it's one of my important posts for now, well that's because of many reasons, I will explain one by one.

The first and main reason is "depression" ik that I said it's gone and extra... But sadly, I got depression again yesterday night, while I was about to sleep, depression just landed into my heart and brain, and yeah. You know... But sadly, I'm the only one who knows that I have depression, no irl friends and even parents, cuz if I did told that to them, they will shot at me instead of calming me down. Like... Yeah why? I'm not joking, I got depression and I'm not faking this for so real. Also I forgot to told you that I'm autistic since when I was child, but still. My parents thinks that it's gone but the reality is still not, with that deep depression too

Secondly, I feel like when I quit, everything goes very well, like what's the matter of uploading videos, staying on phone chatting with friends? Irl friends are better than that shit. Since I started YouTube, I was just doing videos for fun and then quitting, but at 2023, everything changed when I joined "Discord", I was spending much times with strangers, on that time, i didn't realized how dangerous was it, like on that time I've never thought that this thing would destroy my life, like now.. Each time.. Metting new stranges. For that, I created my server just for my fans like discord is my main platform to chat and that's all! No buts! But everything goes deeper, except when I got depression, the school program starts to be much harder, I just lost discord friends that I talked to them in the pastw except 2024 which was the best year for me in discord, I meeted so much people and one of them was my best friend, imagine or not? This was happiest year on my life. Then in 2026, the friends are just disappear, like... What did I do to make them disappear? Except.... "Ignoring" yeah! This word is not random, yeah... Really. You know that I like to talk to others as I'm kind and I feel lonely. But sadly, each time I asked, each time I cared, but... No result, that's one of main reason for depression...

Thirdly, you know, same day, nothing changes, no events, no surprises, you know how I started YouTube? I was underaged at that time, I just joined YouTube for fun, nothing much, I really thought that earning money is good idea! But.. No results, no money, no fun, always sitting in the bed thinking....

Fourthly, thinking about the past won't stop, I always imagine getting a time machine and going to the past, just to change something on my life. For example, wenting to correct my school mistakes, or to live a good memory again... Such As more!

Fifthy, you know, I'm just losing my age on gaming and creating baldi mods and more, I'm just spending my time of nothing, instead of doing something better. Except when I saw a video talking about that thing, a random, just a random video appears from nothing, like somehow? Is that was a message for me? Or what? Oh wow.... I lost 6 years on my age for nothing (I joined internet in 2020) every idea I dream it, I do it in real life, like editing and more! You can go to my shorts and watch my videos there! But still.. Why did I do that? Why did I joined internet? What's the matter of joining internet? If I quitted in 2022 that would be much better, as I had YouTube account only.. Sadly, it's too late, I can't fix my mistakes... Forever

Sixtly, let me explain, I stared creating games since 2023, and first thing that I did is modding Baldi's Basics in base mode, I did that for fun, not for views or anything, As I saw many people are making a lot of good mods, so why not doing that too? And yeah I did it! I created a lot and a lot of mods... I'm still creating till now. But I always think that I'm just spending my gold times for nothing instead of getting job and studying for exams, you know, you don't feel like me, but in the future. You will really realize, just remember my voice, that's all...

Lastly, I don't have irl friends, I don't mean that I don't have, if you asked me, yes I have in School, a lot of friends actually, but most of them are just using me for fun stuffs, like for marks, cheating, money and more... Except those boys shipping me with a girl, like ew? What's the matter of that? If you think that it's funny then go kick yourself on the wall, I'm seriously, what's funny? Except when they use me for nothing, maybe cuz they're jealous at me? But I didn't do good thing, I don't look like a rich or some vip person, just a simple dude. That's all.... By the way, you may ask me to go outside, but. I don't live in a town with the house, I just live in alone house, if I wanted to go on some public place, it will took me 2 hours by foot, I'm not kidding at all...

Ok, let me stop here. Sorry if I made this post long but I explained here my reasons, if you don't see me uploading anymore, just know that I moved on, and I'm trying to build my future.... So, last goodbye? Bye!