I don't want to go back there. It's a waste of time, and almost no one there sees me as an actual human, just a freak animal who should be laughed at every time they actually feel/show negative emotions. I want to be done. Permanently. Summer break will be nice, but I never want to go back there ever again.

Switching to virtual school is a bad idea as well. Not being able to see the few people I actually like would severely damage my sanity, and I'd probably lose what's left of my motivation to get out of bed in the morning.

No matter what I try, I'm stuck in a constant cycle of pain and sadness, and I can't seem to get out...

I won't off myself or anything like that. My family would be too sad, and the spirits watching me would be very disappointed to meet me that way. But I don't really see the point in living anymore.

Also everything going on outside of school is adding on to it, and

I'm pretty sure some of my classmates are Nazis. I am dead serious. They are. One hundred percent. I haven't seen them do a salute or anything directly connected to them, but I fucking know they are. The last of my self-restraint is the only thing stopping me from taking a baseball bat to these fuckers, and I'm just WAITING for the day that they drop the mask and let the rest of us see who they truly are.

I don't want to live in this country anymore. I want to escape, I want to break free from this stupid fucking place of false hope and scumbag leaders. I just want to live! LIVE! LIVE IN A PLACE WHERE EVERYONE CAN GET THE FUCK ALONG AND LEAVE EACH OTHER ALONE BUT I DON'T THINK THAT'S GONNA HAPPEN ANYTIME SOON I FUCKING HATE MY COUNTRY I FUCKING HATE MY COUNTRY I FUCKING HATE MY COUNTRY I FUCKING FUCK FUCK HATE IT!

Anyway, thank you for reading this, and good night to you all.