I have no clue what my attraction is and if it's sexual or romantic or if there's any at all. I feel like I need to know now and force myself into relationships.

I sext with this person and I don't feel anything for it, I just think it's fun (sorry if you're reading this) and I have no clue what this means.

Do I have to know right now?

It's just so frustrating cause all 4 relationships I've been in afterwards seem to have a reason as to why.

More Platonic in Year 7

To stop them from trying to die in Year 9

To stop myself from trying to die in Year 9

Mutual understanding of the others struggles of being trans in Year 10.

It just makes me feel like I've never had a proper relationship which wasn't cause of reasons that can make it not an actual relationship and it is so confusing.

I just don't know.