I feel like death

I wake up everyday just to run on barely any food, no sleep, suicidal thoughts, and depression. If you notice how I'm so just emotionless all the time that's depression. Most people think it's sadness. It actually makes people just not feel anymore. I have barely any motivation throughout the day. I have a fear of failure and I know alot of people hate because I just don't seem to care about anything. I do. I really do. I just have been through it and so much more to be yelled at about not caring! What some people think is bad OOOOOOHHHHHH BOY you're probably dont come close to we have (me and my feiend I mentioned earlier) I have alot of shit in my life. I just ask you bare with me. I only have three people to turn to but only one actually can understand and relate. I barely do any of the "comment I'll do this shit" because I don't feel motivated. I like doing my own thing.

Thanks for listening to my vent/complaining post.

-Foxy 🐶