Why do i have to be so weird around everyone i know. It feels like I have never had a stable friendship where they don't block me. I try to tell them i am joking but they never listen. I am a terrible friend, aren't i? I never see the harm i cause because i am just trying to be silly. I am so weird, rude, and worthless. I feel surprised people still are friends with me and care for me when i do not deserve all that love. I am genuinely a terrible person, and should deserve way more hate than i actually get.