when I was 1 and a half years old my mother left me in the car while I was asleep. I woke up before she came back and assumed she abandoned me. this took a major toll on my mental health. this happened again, and again, and again. somehow my sister always was calm but I never was. I grew an almost debilitating fear of being alone (specifically without a trusted adult), I also have extreme paranoia, these to together have had horrible effects on me. my father used to use locking me in my room and not talking to me as a threat/actual punishment, I thought every time that he had left me alone in the house. one night he tied the bathroom door shut and then moved to a room across the house. I was genuinely convinced that he had been killed and I was alone, fully alone. I was crying, shaking, and begging for someone, anyone. I used the concept of getting stronger during great panic to my advantage by breaking the knot. he hasn't used those punishments since but it is hard for me to be alone in the house at all. including 1 min or less trips outside to feed cats. I. need. help.