Listen, what should I do if I constantly feel bad morally? I don't know what it's called, but it feels like something between excitement and sadness, and in addition, during moments of exacerbation, I also feel something inside that's twisting, usually it manifests itself weakly, but this crap has been my default state for several months now

And what's strange is that positive emotions can arise, which means it's not depression, but at the same time, positive emotions do not replace negative ones, but are mixed into something in between, and I didn't describe it correctly because this crap feels a little differently, but I didn't describe it correctly, but in any case, I constantly feel some kind of umm tension mixed rather not even with sadness, but with melancholy or something like nostalgia, according to sensations, but without an exact reference to time and events from the past, but rather umm, this is an obsessive feeling like nostalgia, but not about what happened in the past, but about what [will probably] happen in the [near] future