I don't know where to start this but around the time I had decided to take a break from the internet I had been in a state of deep depression that I still haven't come out of yet and it just feels like it never will end. So the time I had decided to take a break I had ended up every night taking a knife to my arms and I never felt that anyone cares for me which I still think and I would constantly do it and sometimes I would do it over 100 times in one night and I just tried so hard to stop myself but nothing would work and I would talk to my best friend who also does the same stuff I was doing and we connected and started hanging out about every single day now but I continued to do it then in order to keep myself from doing it I decided to start doing LSD to make me happy and I even did it in my highschool. I recently decided to not do LSD anymore considering the dude that got me it ended up overdosing on pills and passing away and I just didn't want my life to get ruined on drugs this early in life since I just turned 18 September last year but I am still extremely depressed and trying to get better but nobody really has my number to text me since I no longer have wifi at my house so I use limited data on my phone each month but I'm trying to get better and hopefully I will be back soon and better than what I am now, I love you all and I wish that you stay safe.