The answer is no.

I don't feel comfortable.

I feel like if someone else were to date her, maybe she'd realize how much of a weak person I am. That their better than me in so many ways and she ends up leaving me for them. That happened to me before. Multiple times. I don't ever want it to happen again. Erin and my other friends are the only reason I still have gamejolt anymore. My purpose of living. If I lose them, I lose myself. Completely.

I just don't like the idea of her flirting or dating others because I'm so insecure about myself and my flaws, I feel like she would notice them and leave me for the other said person because they don't have the same flaws. I know I come off as possessive and controlling sometimes. But that's because I'm afraid. Afraid of losing her. For once, when she tells me "I love you" and "I'll never leave you" I actually believe that. I have faith for once. But if it all turns out to just be words, I'll never believe those words again. Ever.

Anyway, sorry for the rant/vent.