I've gone through the feelings of emptiness, of feeling like everyday's the same, and to just to feel miserably and like everything's meaningless, that youre a thousand bad things, a voice telling me it everyday like a murmur from hell, to be stuck on this place,

Im here to try to give you.. an advice on what to do, so im sorry if i bring bad memories back, but im trying to make everything comprehensive because life is complex, i cant know exactually whats happening to you unless you tell me in the comments. And if you get out of the place you are, its not because of ME, its befause of your own strenght, because save? I cant save anyone from the fate they choose

[More of an personal experience]: Having gone through these demons, i can say that life is meaningful, and its worth staying, even when i continue feeling empty. To live is a hard task, specially when suicide seems so attractive, but theres an illusion with death, that is; you wont have 'peace', because only living beings have that, therefore, dead beings have ...what? Nothing, because to be dead is to not exist, to be dead is to, consciously saying, become Antimatter, because a dead being doesnt know they exist, nor they need to. One of the things that helped me the most when i was down was trying to find peace in the chaos, which, to some may be hard, but i found meditation really helpful, because it made me clear my mind, and i think thats what we need to see this situation with more sense, critically. I have to confess, about feeling empty, i dont know exactually how you should... Deal about it, because the feeling never goes away (atleast it still didnt for me), but to feel empty doesnt mean you cant act differently, sensibly,and be positive, which, to some may sound crazy and cliché, but to me, it helped, specially because the realization of the positive thinking hit me like a truck. That is; you should be grateful for the things you have. (IF) You werent abused when young, (IF) your parents dont spank you, if your parents dont argue, if you, overall, have an average, healthy life, this is something to be grateful for, because you cant imagine how many people dont have this luxury, for example, here in Brazil, we have public hospitals, which are 100% of the time full of people waiting days, weeks, perhaps even years just to do something urgent like a surgery or something simple like an X-ray. To be healthy is a priviledge, one of the blessing you have. Imagine people whose salary is so low that they are forced to choose wether they get food or some toilet paper for example. Some people that need to choose between paying the bills or paying the food, to have a home is a blessing, and to be alive right now, is another blessing, because think with me, imagine you died at birth, had some genetic deficiency in the DNA structure that would make you be born with some part of the body deformed, that and a thousand other things could have gone wrong in your birth, and yet, here you are. This is one of the things that gives your life so much worth, because now people, your friends, stay with you, adore your presence, and to be with you wouldnt be possible if you were dead, so we, your friends, your family is lucky to have someone like you with them