Growing up I never had a lot of money I never had a phone always was a little hungry used to find it hard to sleep when I could hear my mother sobbing I was 10 back then I didn’t have a room had to buy used shoes I hid behind tunes to avoid abuse every time I fell I would blame it on myself even if it was an accident maybe it’s not what I want oh I’ve seen better days and the moment F- sucks but I’ll be D- if I don’t stop and honestly why not when nobody gives a F- but sometimes I just can’t help myself I wanna give up trying and start doing something else sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it’s in my mind but I think I need some help cuz sometimes I just can’t help myself I was an outcast thrown out to dry and get laughed at too shy to talk about home I always thought life was s’posed to be cold and oh I’ve been so lost without hope I got a window in my head, it’s a casket you know I been wishing I was dead, but I mask it [CHORUS] but sometimes I just can’t help myself I wanna give up trying and start doing something else sometimes I just get overwhelmed I know it’s in my mind but I think I need some help because it’s all I know my hands around my throat pray that I won’t let go this time around but every single time I try to shut my eyes I see the reason why I’m not alone [CHORUS]