my life feels meaningless...

i try to apologize about all the bad stuff i had done in the past, but it does nothing... people never stop talking about it, like as if i said nothing... why do i even try anymore... maybe i should leave... forever... and never return... i should just die...

many people have told me it's a good idea... so i may do that... don't even try to stop me... it'll only make shit worse...

everything i do is horrible... i'm not even supposed to be here... i was a mistake... my dad told me that... he said i wasn't supposed to be born...

he's telling the truth... ever since i was brought into the world... i've done nothing but bad stuff... my life is meaningless... i have done nothing and will do nothing to this world... i'm just here... waiting to die...