Is there something wrong with me?

No, but actually, IS there something wrong with me? I have adhd, but the majority of the world also has it. I have slight gender dysphoria, but that’s a normal thing for teenagers to experience. I get suicidal thoughts even, but I’m not all “I’m ending this! I can’t live anymore like this!” It’s more like, “if I killed my self, what would happe? Would anyone care? Who would be at my funeral? I wonder if **** would be there….” Why am I so normal, but yet so… not? I’ve been through so much, but I don’t show any signs of it. Other people get extreme stress and stuff after trauma, but I just don’t care. If my parents left me right now for being queer, I really wouldn’t care all too much. If everyone I loved died, I would move on. I’m not sure if this is a good thing or not. I mean, it’s good that I don’t have ptsd or trauma or anything, but then when I actually am feeling really low, people don’t notice, either bc they don’t care or I’m just that good at masking it. Am I good? Or am I deranged? Okay or depressed? Boy or girl? Left or right? In or out? Up or down? Boy or girl? Human or inhumane? Friends or knives? Harm or self harm? Boy or girl? Boy or girl? Boy or girl

Who am I

Should I exist

Do I exist

Am I just a puppet

Who am I

Why did he

Break my trust

Why did they

Openly harm me

Mentally and physically

Why did she

Hate us so much

Oop-

Sorry, I was ranting again!