so, she hasn't been online on either discord or gamejolt as much lately (again) and it's had me reconsider if i'm even doing a relationship properly (again)
this is a concern i'm always genuinely paranoid about, because i've broken up with 3 different partners quite literally all within the span of 4 months earlier this year
she always ensures me that the relationship'll actually last but i just can't shake the feeling that i'm just bound to do something stupid and fuck it all up again
i am admittedly afraid of if or even when that time'll come, when i make a mistake so drastic it essentially separates us. i love her so much, but that paranoid feeling that it's all going to go awry, it's like moss. it keeps growing no matter how much you attempt to stop it.
maybe i'm just overreacting, per usual, but it's always just eating away at me internally
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