oh my god hi okay so. slams manilla folder on table.

its not that im struggling but I've been grappling with really nailing down this particular vibe, I CANNOT tell you enough how hard it is when YOU play as the antagonist of the story, there's a reason this trope isnt more common 😭 like you'd think more edgy authors would take this into account more but it always turns into an anti-hero story or something like that ... and i understand why, oh my god

it can be really really hard to build suspense when we literally are the bad guy in our choices of the story and I thought like oh why is nobody doing this kind of switch.... well. like there's examples of this being good but you can't really build on mystery anymore and it's been really interesting trying to work around this, and focusing most on the idea being the dread that your MC is going to do something you dont like lol

I want this game to be over the top and grotesque, I'll say it now because like I really am just having fun with my wild ideas and visions of what It was always supposed to be but omg omg the focus being pushed onto how I have to present things to make them interesting bc we, the player, already *know* everything . like it is so so difficult . theres a few twists but it can be hard to bounce off of when there's no actual antagonist on the other side, william is literally beefing with children who are like aw man guys ☹️☹️ there's no business rival because he's the big boss, and building tension other than watching this guy be like waiiit I need to kill and eat more kids this is my life's calling and slowly unraveling backstory can be rough

im also fighting a war here because my william is NOT intended to be sympathetic literally at all other than maybe like he is straight up an addict with alcohol and smoking to where he is dying and that's a pivot point of him being like NOOOOOOOOO MY BEAUTY ITS SLIPPING THROUGY MY FINGERS😢 but there is no We have to put son back together or remnant or qhatever lol

I have a ton of branching choices in mind like it's pretty linear but you can choose to learn more and delve deeper but good god I've been fighting for my life to keep it fresh

ok yay im gonna go color sorry had to talk