Maybe this is why the girl I like doesn't like me... I'd just make her feel worse wouldn't I? I'd somehow ruin it...

I ruin everything afterall... Even applying for colleges I can't do, but my dad and stepmom don't want me to take a break year when that's what I need more than anything!

I hate it.... I fucking hate it. I hate myself, I hate my dad, I hat my mom for leaving me, I hate my stepmom for pulling me out of school for six months and ruining my chances of having me actually be able to socialize properly...

Why do people even deal eith me? I'm just a depressed little shit who only causes other people to have to worry, maybe I should make it so that they don't have to worry...

But no, I can't do that, because some people depend on me... I just.....

UGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

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I need a minute.... Sorry for wasting your time I guess.... I doubt amyone's even gonna read this...