And i dont care how many posts i'll need to make for you to see this, but ill write it until this really touches deep inside your heart, because i dont wanna see you losing your fight and become one more with the percentage of people that give up, no, i wanna see you being loved and loving.

Stop caring about things that dont take you forward. You know those discord groups and communities that have lots of toxic people? Leave them and chat only with your real friends.

Leave all the negativity because you dont need more demons to scream stuff at your ears.

Discipline yourself, and this is the most serious part. Really, start forcing yourself to not spend too much time in here on the digital worls, i know you might have your hobbies, and even if you dont, go find one, just get your butt out of the bed, and i know sometimes this can be the hardest thing to do, but in here we start with baby steps. Start trying to tidy your room, than taking out the dish, doing the dishes. No, not every day its gonna be something extraordinary, and thats okay, nothing needs to be 100% or completly 0%, life's not an extreme of the ups and downs, but the balance and the swing of the up and down, you just need to get used to it, and i say have to because i dont want you to give up. Dont let the fire consume you please, because i know whats like to lose someone, and i can tell you, even if you think others dont care about you, you dont know how much we'll cry for you at the end, trust me im not in any side other than yours, because i wanna see so much you building from the nothing a beautiful building, and it doesnt need to be much, but you mean way much more than what you think you do. Theres so many reason to keep living, so please dont pull the trigger, dont bring the sadness to your friends, because there's nothing worse in this world to know you couldve done something to keep someone alive, and i know that someone is you, so please listen, dont throw your life away like this, dont play with it just because of your crushing sadness, because theres much beauty you need to see, and if i could, i would grab your arm and force you to stay until our end, because this is something that makes knots in me, you know how much youre loved? Youre cared, youre worthy of everything you have, and no, no one can take that out of you. Youre so much more and yet you dont see it. I can say a million things to you, but you need to promise me to never give up, to give this words a second thought because theres no second life and no other you in this whole damm world, so please, take care of your body and health, i wanna see you getting to your 100's happier than ever

Xo, Luca.