Standstills official alt wanna hear depressing shit? No? Then just leave I might also talk about friends and serious stuff so warning on that but I'll warn you if it's real bad

Welcome to standstill transparent here you can expect INFREQUENT posts about me unfiltered my true thoughts some posts are gonna be pretty sad so just warning you I'll put trigger warnings if necessary

I just wanna skip ahead all I feel is failure I just wanna skip to when I can make everything I want to make and not talk to myself about and lie to myself saying it's real

About last post I'm just useless I feel like there's no point to have me alive hmmm I can tell why I tried to kill myself last year

Jacko can make games and use blender

Minnie can use blender

Manim too

Everyone has a talent not me

Why can't I be good at something?

In my imagination I'm so big I'm literally the biggest game developer but I can't think of reality cuz I talk to myself as if I was recording to an audience if I say "who am I talking to" it just hurts more