Venting in Fire's hangout spot

I feel like someone who can't be taught jack shit.
The smallest things can piss me off.
I'm just gonna say it, I feel like a complete and utter bafoon.
I'm so fucking dumb, I can't make a fucking soundfont, HELP ME.
Looping an SF2 can get annoying. All I'm gonna say.
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE You get it, constant noise.
I'm coming up with Corrupted Underground's lore as I go through the doc. It's gonna be shit I'll say that.
Bro, why the hell can I not find a BF idle animation gif?!

vent, that's all it is.

No, there wasn't, CD Sides, Tremendous Torture Tuesday was never finished, god I want to continue those mods
Why do I even try? When I know I'll just drop them after a week, what good are my skills if I can't finish shit?
Feeling un-motivated. AGAIN, WONDERFUL! JUST FUCKING WONDERFUL!
What am I useful for? Starting something, and then giving up and dropping the project?