Vent in Lucky's Amazing Gamejolt Community

Looking back on what I did is fucking ass and I look at what I posted and fucking hate myself even more.

I can't hold it in anymore.

Full rant in article.

How do you tell someone you miss them without them getting weirded out because they don't wanna associate with you again? BECAUSE I MISS KASEN WAY TOO MUCH. I hate whenever I do crazy shit cuz someone's "mean" to me.

I WANT HIM BACK. I WANT HIM BACK. I WANT HIM BACK. I WANT HIM BACK. I WANT HIM BACK. I WANT HIM BACK. I WANT HIM BACK.

I thought I could have a chance to get away from him, by getting with you. I guess you like him more than me. OH WELL.

Last night... he told me he forgave me...

Today I was drawing something of me and the guy I'm "dating", before I was hit with the "Oh shit I really am a bad person" thing. I now hate myself even more than before. [I'm not showing anyone because it's weird and gross.]

Am I deserving of love anymore?

...Probably not.

Do I need help?

Yeah.

Did I ever take that first baby step?

No.

Will he ever forgive me?

Hell fucking no.

The truth is, I miss him more than I've missed anyone before.

I really just want my ex-bf and my ex-friend to be happy. I don't care anymore. @baja_snick and @daxblueheart you two are amazing people and you'll always be cool imo.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA WHY DID THAT GUY EVEN FRIEND MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?! >:C HE JUST MADE A POST ABOUT WTF I DID AND I HATED IT OMFG PLZ STOP BRINGING IT UP I HATE YOU I HATE YOU FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

Sorry, I was just very angy.

Edits in article.

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