I am getting abused by my family for years now and first it was more with violence when I was around 5/6 years old back then. Parents had anger issues and if I did something they didn't like or if I have a answer wrong during studying I got yelled and hit/slapped.

Now its just Non-Violent abuse with Isolation and hatred. I have no friends and only online ones but they don't really talk with me.

Undertale Cyan is not just a project its part of MY story and my life meaning things here is really happened or made up mixed with real trauma/pain in it. Hopelessness route shows that perfectly and I even made this to represent my burden

Everything was true here except the car crash it represents the old me crashed and lost to a monster that I am today. I feel so isolated and have the urge to hurt myself and kill myself with knifes and other methods but I just cant do this. I now have the urge to jump of the bridge when I am near one for a few months. My Past trauma and schizophrenia/mental disorders will be represented by Kyle and Jace the two cuties...

I have countless taughts of suicide and urges to kill myself. I am having scars on my arms of the continuing cutting and cutting with scissors,nails and a knife (Sometimes).

Undertale Cyan is my entire life and story mixed onto a project you all will soon play.

I wanted to notify you guys and if I may have comitted suicide I will give my account to Paquete and Ele.
(Before I do this) But I don't think this is going to happen. I can talk more about this topic just let me know

Thank you for reading and have a nice day.