like a truck with no warring and me left to think of what they mean. What should I do with them? is there a meaning with doing the thing I see with my mind or is it a message telling me something that could happen? It's tiring but at the same time brings me with a since things to ponder that I welcome to pass the time. Life is so weird in that you can't control what will happen tomorrow or the next day or the day after that, should I do something with the things that go on in my mind? Will people like them? will they hate them? could I be ignored after the fact of the deed? who knows and maybe I shouldn't draw to those thoughts as in the end, it is my thoughts and I could perhaps do the things I think upon. Stepping out of the shadows and into the eyes of all can be easy for some but hard for others, could it be the judgment of there mouths the moment the sounds of the video stop or maybe the effect of doing something that a person disagrees with and they do something unmoral. It's one of the many things you must think upon before stepping into the spotlight because for even thought it feels good to feel special, sometimes you might want to double think yourself. Ambition.. is a word that I chain myself everyday to make myself feel like everyone else so I don't don't think I have to put lines for me to walk from. But I want to fall off those lines I want to express myself in a way that's big and fresh I WANT TO FEEL DIFFRENT FROM EVERYONE ELSE BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE THE MOMENT I DO I OVER STEP I FALL TO MY END. Ambition... is a word that I chain myself everyday to make myself feel like everyone else so I don't don't have to put lines for me to walk from. I must limit myself to where I can do the things I want but without the risk, I pray to no one but myself to make them happen. Ambition.... can lead to more sins then any other and the worse one of them all... PRIDE. Maybe... caring about caring to too much... maybe... I should go with what I believe is right no matter what the other person thinks but doesn't abandon his morals and kindness and compassion of others. I must find a balance, and I will. I think its time for sleep... Good night everyone and don't worry about me... I'll be fine. Just thought I'd let that out by venting, the eyes and mouths of judgment scare me sometimes, but I can take it I have to.. or I may as give up before even getting the chance to do anything at all.