But you need to reach out to someone, a friend, your family, therapist, anyone you trust, because the spikes are pointy, and theyll only hurt deeper and deeper inside, this pain is only gonna eat you from the inside like Termite eating wood. Get away from people who only make you feel worse, and im saying about the ones you cant, because family is family, despite they being annoying and bothering, theres always an deeper reason, and sometimes its just the accumulated stress, but if you do it, you dont imagine how much theyll cry, and no, this is no motivation for you to do it. I know all's hypnotizing in this world, everything tryna get you stuck in here, sucking your energy till youre feeling worse, but you need to set up some rules for yourself, just so you start to see if you can spend a little more outside this digital realm, because you need human interaction and to enjoy yourself outside of the screen, instead of the everyday doom scroll.

Every time i write to you, it all sounds a bit desperate, but it should be, because i dont want to lose you or anyone else from this illness

Thats why i always ask you to take me seriously, because all i try to do is give you a north so you can navigate through this battle better.