GETTING OLD SUCKS.

Age really is a bitch. Kids can't understand. It's not just about the new aches or pains, either. It's about irrelevancy. It's about everything you love becoming a "classic," vintage, or retro. And the worst is just knowing, with every fiber of your being, how disappointed your young self would be with who you have become. I mean it. Just look at yourself? What happened to hitchhiking through Europe? Traveling the world? Finding an older lover, going to parties, and being a free spirit? Your last ten vacations have all been to fucking Disney World. Disney. World.

And yeah, if your teen version could see you now. A boring old man, doing boring old man shit. Addictions, job and misery are your fucking identity. You're a meme. A joke. You drink the beer, read the trashy romance novels, and try to do everything for the others while ignoring yourself. Just like your mother did, Just like your father did. Hurts to remember that, doesn't it? All that mattered are the others. Never yourself. You're the adult here now, you're not relevant, you don't matter.

Not anymore.