The last Grid Live Show aired Dec 10th, 2021.
That was also the last night I had a Fiance.

Before that, I was with a wonderful woman for 12 years. We planned on marrying soon. I kept her a secret from my internet life because we agreed it was easier that way.

💠- The morning of Dec 11th, 2021, I lost my fiance.
She came home with her ex (her daughters father), informed me she had been cheating on me with him, and then he helped her move everything out while I sat there, broken.

I have a live stream I did a few days after this moment, which will explain the events in detail, if you are so interested in knowing. That 20 min video is titled "goodbye" on my YT.
I got pretty ugly in that video, so I apologize in advance.

At that time, I truly thought I was not going to be able to continue my path forward on my goals with The Grid or myself as a content creator. With no way to pay rent, as I was not working at the time of her departure, I was destined to be homeless.

However, the beautiful people of The Grid, and some deeply kind hearted souls here on GameJolt, rallied together to donate an incredible $500 to me through a gofundme that my dear friend @Rahiem had created to help me in the darkest and shittiest moment of my entire life.

I was able to scrape together the remaining 400 I needed for that months rent, which gave me a good rep with my landlord, who in turn was considerate of my situation, and allowed me time to sort myself out.

I quickly got a job at a nearby fast food joint in the first week of January, and started work at 1 day a week for the first few weeks. It was stressful, but thanks to the amazing donations from the gofundme showing my landlord I was trying hard, he was patient with me.

I now work 6 nights a week.
Closing shift. Every night. 💪

I worked hard to show my co-workers I meant business, and within a matter of weeks, they jumped my scheduled hours up, and I started making extra money. Enough to cover all my bills, and then some.

So I got myself a supply of contacts for half a year, and a pair of 20$ Bluetooth headphones, so closing late at night, my walk back and forth to work, and home/gym exercise, was more enjoyable.

This week, I started streaming again, and today...I have purchased a membership at a nearby Planet Fitness, which just so happens to be right down the street from work, which I already walk to anyways.

🌻I will now be:🌻
◽️ going to the gym 6 days a week
◽️ working 5-6 nights a week
◽️ streaming 3 days a week
◽️ continuing to release content like before
◽️ releasing new content I have decided to branch into

❓ Did life punch me in the dick?
Yes. Yes, it did.
❓ Am I OK?
Yes. You helped me. We did that.
❓ Are we going to push forward harder than ever?
Yes. Yes we fucking are.
❓ Will we allow life to defeat us?
Not. Fucking. Ever.

Life may win the battle, but WE decide the outcome of the war. WE choose how to respond. WE will stand tall and strive to take a better step forward with each new day. WE...will become the greatest version of ourselves that we can be. That, is our destiny.

So thank you, to my ex-fiance...Nichole.
You opened my eyes in a way that I could never have foreseen. Not only did you show me that you were not the woman I once knew...You also showed me I was not the man I once was. Thank you, for waking me up, from my 12 year slumber.

I will look at this time, not as wasted years of my life, not as a decade of time never gotten back, not as a pitiful hole in my memories, but as an empowering moment, where the 12 year old cocoon I have hibernated in...finally cracks open, and I see the light.

And thank YOU.💚
All of you who helped.
All of you who hoped.
All of you who believed.

Let's see what we become, together.
I'm on a New Game+ this time around.
Lost almost everything I loved, but I kept some things.
Let's see what we do with this play-through.
I'm aiming for the best ending.
How about you? 👊🍆🍑