im constantly in hell

you dont fucking know how broken i am behind the screen

all those months of torment

all those times i thought my career was going to fucking die

all those FUCKING YEARS of feeling worthless

i just want the nightmare to be over

but it never will

i dont know

im thinking "maybe im better off without him"

but im also thinking: "if hes gone, ill want to die"

I DONT FUCKING KNOW WHATS REAL ANYMORE

I JUST WANT HELP

THIS PLATFORM KEEPS FUCKING WITH MY MIND AND I DONT KNOW WHY