I say this kind of stuff to you everyday because you need to get this message down your throat, whatever way it has to be, its not worth committing it, because sure, your everyday routine may be boring as hell, tedious, monotous, and might make you want to take your own life, but cant you see that life isnt just this? I know that when you read all of this and stuff you may think im sayong the obvious and it might not help, but lets try something, tell me something GOOD that happened this week in your life, or something good that happened lately.

Its ok if you cant tell anything, but its not true. There are certainly good things that happened, but just passed by you, unnoticed because good isnt something that we really care, what i mean by that is,(sometimes/somepeople) dont give worth/dont see worth in the things they have, because they never had the taste of hows like to never have such things, like food, a house, a good family, and instead of looking at such good things in our life and be like "oh wow, how lucky i am for having these", we tend to get attracted to the bad things, for example, the disasters constantly being broadcasted in the news, on the tv. Im sure theres some kind of tv channel in your country thats like, most of the time just news report, and its mostly like someone who died/got raped/etc, and this seems to be more relevant than the good things, but it isnt. Its not your fault to be giving attention to the bad things, because the entire media was designed to keep you engaged in something they provide to us, so you can watch more ads and give them money, its been like that with twitter, Instagram, and tv itself, but, im sure you can acknoledge that this form of engagement is bad for your mental health, and im not saying to like, not watch the news, yes, they are important, but like everything in life, the excess of it is bad, so, while its hard to get rid of these habit, its also necessary, so really, force yourself to consume less bad things, avoid twitter, if you constantly check it/post on it, avoid Instagram, so you dont scroll endlessly and compare yourself to others, and avoid endless hours in the tv, try finding something to clear your mind, be it meditation, drawing, playing some instrument, whatever, just try doing something that makes you relax and think less of stuff, so you dont keep constantly blaming yourself for this and that, and, if you reach this peace, or atleast overthink less, try to access this whole situation with.. less impulsiveness, see it critically;

Do you really want to leave this world?

Do you really want to leave your (real) friends behind, knowing that they love you, just as much as you love them?

For your friends, to be with you is wonderful, this relationship, the way you two build it. They not only like you because you share common interest, but they care about you, they will miss you when youre gone, because your presence makes this world less difficult to live on, youre a door for you both share your feelings, your experiences, likes, dislikes, and to lose you is like losing a brother or a sister.

You are strong, for .. (trying to be) able to win this fight. To get to this point where you are, and to not suicide is already a big win, and even more that you acknoledge the seriousness of it, because this life isnt a cable you can unplug from the wall, because you cant replace it, its unique, we only have one, and thats why we gotta make this life worth living for, and besides, the "peace" in death doesnt exists, because to be dead is to not exists, its, literally, nothing, and we cant thing if we are nothing, we cant feel, we dont know what will happen, but there isnt "peace" in being nothing, because really, youll never feel anything literally if you become nothing, and to die is to close this door, without doing the things you wanted to, the things you can do if you just keep trying harder to survive, because trust me, you are way more than your demons, your being is already blessed to be here, to be alive right now, and not have died at birth, or born with some syndrome that could have impacted heavily on your life.