A lot of people have told me that I shouldn't be making vent posts, I don't care. All possibilities of me talking to a professional have been snipped and I don't feel inclined to dump in someone's dms.

I legit don't care if it's embarrassing doing this in public, this needs to be said. My motivation to work on anything has been completely and totally dying.

To make a long story short, there is a very good chance that my family will be filing for bankruptcy soon. I'm not sure if that fact is an exaggeration or not by my mom, but her bringing it up period is worrying to say the least.

I don't need money to make my games, it's all free. That's not the problem at the end of the day, it's seeing people who I love struggle and have to live in monotony because they can't live the same way anymore.

I can't just bury my head on the web and pretend like this doesn't bother me, because it does. And when I pretend to be fine, I act erratic and I turn people off of me.

Bet you've heard this a million times, but I need to find a healthier distraction. I'll still be here making things because that's what I like to do, but I need to stop interacting so much.

I've let my paranoia, and the fear of people liking me or not bury me down for more long than I care to admit. For as many mistakes as I've made, I'm tired of feeling like shit for the stuff that I don't feel are mistakes.

This is just rambling on, point is. Don't expect things to come out at the pace they did before, I need time. Thank you for all of the support you've given me, I'll try to keep going, I just need to change some things up.

Thank you, take care