Hello, everyone!

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here in gamejolt. I’ve been trying my best to disassociate off the internet as much as I can because I don’t think it’s really healthy to grow too attached to talking to pixels on a screen haha.. I initially intended to post a video today on my really dead YouTube channel with only about one or two YouTube videos. However, I didn’t really have enough time as I’ve been out on a trip doing one of my favorite things - skiing!! It’s my favorite sport.

Now, initially, this post was going to be… different. I was about to ramble on about how this year messed me up so much as a person I started to reconsider the very bane of my existence and my personal well being. I was about to ramble about my addictions, the messiness of my emotional state and how I feel like it’s slowly starting to drain my soul, yada yada yada yada blah blah blah. However, today, I don’t want to talk about that. I don’t want to talk about depressing and miserable topics or my personal insecurities regarding my recently doubtful sexuality (I know I didn’t expect this either) and my religion or even insecurities revolving around my talent and my life, no. Today, I want to talk about life.

According to the Oxford Languages, life is the existence of an individual human being or animal. However, I’ll bring in a new definition to life. Life is an art, it’s the art of breathing, walking, speaking, seeing, moving, dancing, sleeping, crying, laughing. Life is an art which takes time to be appreciated but, once it is, it is paradise, it truly is like walking on a dream. However, to others, the meaning behind life might not be so welcoming. This year, I’ve commonly heard people ramble on and on about how miserable life is and how there’s nothing one can do to stop terrible things from happening in one’s life. Honestly? Given the multiple individuals who have gone through multiple injustices in their lives, I don’t really blame them for adopting this nihilistic mindset. I mean, who knows what goes on in each individual mind, we all react differently to different events in our real life. For example, one of my best friends in my real life also shares a similar philosophy, claiming his incredibly complicated and crappy circumstances justify a philosophy in which he immediately comes to believe that life is just the personification of hell itself. He has… a lot of issues, and he’s gone through quite a lot, and I always try my best to be present in the moment, to help him in any way I can. He is still very much one of my best friends and he means a lot to me, even if his head is not fully in the right place.

I once believed life had a meaning I was perhaps unable to process. I comprehended that my existence had a purpose, I mean, everyone had to exist for a reason, right? Now, in my modern day and age, I understand what the meaning behind my existence is, and it isn’t to just be another cog in society or to accept whatever life throws at me like a brick wall. The meaning behind my existence is to live. It’s to feel the breeze of the air and to enjoy the hot baths, it’s to feel the warmth of the love of my family and my pets. Sure, my love life may be entirely in the drains. Sure, I feel like I’m often regulated to a stereotype or a joke in my real life most of the time. However, I still feel happy to be alive, even whenever life throws unexpected and horrible stuff at me. For example, this year I made the incredibly stupid decision of joining a STEM Racing club at school and I honestly have never felt this miserable working on a school project in a long time, but, do you guys want to know something? It’s going to end at some point. It’s going to end so I can have a certain amount of peace with that idea. If I just toss to the side all which I consider to be garbage filling up my everyday life, I feel more at peace than ever before, I feel happier than ever before. And here’s another thing. I used to think that my personal creative projects granted me a sort of personal closure by basically venting through my scripts, and although that’s a very useful thing to do (shit, I’m doing that right now), part of finding happiness is just.. by living. This year has made me realize more than ever that working on projects drains you more than it should, and, honestly, to all who are working on these types of things.. just quit it. Enjoy your teenage years. I’ve dealt with incompetent directors and producers, egocentric artists, two faced directors, etc. etc. etc… Are these the people you want to waste your precious time as a teenager on? Wow, I bet you’re gonna remember your teenage years very fondly, won’t you? Instead of wasting your time on these people that you owe absolutely nothing to, do things that make your life worth living. Go on that date, go make that movie, go on that trip, do everything to make your life a little better instead of rotting away in an apartment as you see your life flash before your eyes. Feel alive.

I’ve got many words of advice for those who might be reading this and have not gotten bored by this bible of a reflection on life.

1. This might be semi-hypocritical as I am a film critic that enjoys to strongly defend their opinions, but be positive. We are living in a world in which negativity and toxicity has become all too common because it’s easier to be rude to words on a screen than it is to someone in person. Why the hell do you want to get into arguments, fights and debacles over pointless things when you could be spreading love, kindness, positivity, happiness? As Ernest Hemingway once said, “the world is a fine place and worth fighting for”. This fight humans go through every day is not a physical fight, but an emotional fight against these negative emotions that overtake our personalities and our very being, this monster that consumes our morale and turns us into rude fabrications of people you don’t really know.

2. Do the things you really want to do. This goes back to my point regarding working for people you don’t owe anything to. Why the hell do you want to stay stuck working with some incredibly rude and egocentric person and why don’t you want to do something or your own? Do everything you really want to do, not what people expect from you. I’ll tell you guys what I want to do this year. This year, I want to complete my personal passion project, “Whisker’s Initiative”, a passion project developed by me, my friends and some cousins that could be the closest thing you’ll ever see to my autobiography. This year, I want to heighten my grades, I want to evolve from a B student to an A student. This year, I want to watch one new movie every single day. Most importantly, however, I want to enjoy the slow moments, the walks, the runs, the exhaustion and the joy.

3. Always be willing to forgive and to accept. In a world in which forgiveness has become a shadow of the past, we must accept that as a general part of resolution. To forgive is to accept that the individual you once wronged or who once wronged you has grown as a person, that he has been reconstructed in its entirety and is willing to start over. Give that person that chance, give them that chance to be reborn in the same way I am willing to give myself a chance in the coming year.

After all, all of these pieces of advice are key to my definition of life. It’s an art that takes its time to be fully appreciated but, once it is, you’ll only discover how beautiful the artwork is. You won’t help but fall in love with that person, you won’t help but laugh at the sight of snow, you won’t help but feel human. So, what’s coming for me? Am I finally going to land on a partner that I’ll actually welcome into my life? Honestly, who the hell knows, but, if I did, all of the excitement that comes in the divine package of life would fade away. I want to be surprised, I want it to hit me unexpectedly. I want to be fulfilled and to be satisfied and, above all, to be happy, and I am ready for the coming year, as I know I’ll be the happiest. As I close the curtain to this post and look into the horizon of the new year with a certain hope and joy-fullness, I shall quote the great Oscar Wilde.. “If you know me based on who I was a year ago, you don't know me anymore. My evolution is constant. Let me reintroduce myself.”

To conclude this already very long post, I’ll go ahead and mention multiple friends who are active online who have really made my year. Here they go.

@AverageFranDev - The man, the myth, the legend. Man, where do I even begin? This year has been rough for the both of us, let’s not even try lying to ourselves here. However, your presence, which became an incredibly rare thing this year, was always incredibly warm and welcoming. You’re legitimately one of the nicest and most transparent people I’ve ever met in the internet, and that’s huge because the internet is filled with a-holes. You’re a kind soul and a kind soul can sometimes be enough to light up someone’s day. I know you did that multiple times as a matter of fact. I’ve enjoyed working with you on “Five Nights at Freddy’s 2: Reconstructed”, and I really can’t wait to show everyone what we have in store.. it’ll be revolutionary, even if it’s met with initial discourse. Don’t listen to those guys, though. They can’t do shit.

@THK_205 - I remember messaging you in Twitter on a whim to get on WtBB for fun (it was spring break and I was bored out of my mind) and holy hell did I never expect you to be this close of a friend. There are a lot of ways to describe you, my friend, but one that constantly shows up is unique and dedicated. You are incredibly dedicated to your craft and your personality is so frigging unique that it makes me really question how the hell you even got to be my friend. Working with you has been a pleasure, and so has being your friend. I look forward to an excellent year that’ll mark both of our lives in an incredibly positive way!! I’m sure of it.

Madi K. - It’s kind of funny how I’m writing a bunch of words for someone who doesn’t even have gamejolt and who might never even get this message, but I want to thank you for being such an amazing friend. I was lucky to have met you, and I feel incredibly happy about the fact that I got to be your friend. It really makes me happy to just talk to you, man. I am still very sorry for drunk calling you, though, that was incredibly embarrassing.

@mimic_program_one - The closest thing we’ll ever see to a man who actually does see the best in absolutely everything is this man right here, FuntimeHelpi. I have absolutely no idea how the fuck you manage to pull out this ideology, it’s something I really envy and I don’t envy anything lmao. I am very happy to be able to frequently speak to you, as your words and unmatched energy always seem to make my day. I look forward to the future, Helpi.. you know what that means. Cheers for the future.

Since I am about to board an airplane soon which will land on the 5th (way past my birthday), I’ll just do a lightning round and list everyone else who I’ve met who I deeply appreciate and who’ve made my year.

@FizzyFuzz , @moarlol , IsolateDirector, @CircuitBoardProductions , @mbile_games , @Terminus-Games , CJ Kyper, @Audrift , @ilTizo , @ThatBritishGuy , @stinky_dog

That’s pretty much it for me, then. Here’s to a great 2026!

Love from Mexico,

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