Imma be honest, my life isnt that interesting as some may believe

All the time is just a loop of

Go to school > get back from school > go to guitar lessons on Monday > go to basketball on Wednesday and Friday and repeat

Yes, some might say "that's routine pal", but I dont think its a "routine" when I always say to myself "get to Friday without smacking my head into a wall" as my first highschool year isnt any different then my middle school years

Plus whenever I got to a new place or somewhere I will always get reprof by my mother with "Im taking you to places others will never go to in their life time and your paying me back with these awful grades?"

And cause of this shit, those places lose all their charm.

"Sigh"

Im just sick, tired and mentally drained of all of this

And Im tried of trying make something out of it but my will is basically gone at this point as anything I tried had basically minimal to no results which destroyed my motivation and morale

Now I just hope for the best, even tho im tired of doing that