Yeah that's right!

I became 18 years old this exact day and this exact hour, and i have few things to tell what has been going on at this account i have over 4 years from now and perhaps a little talk from my own self.

this post is Schedule to make sure i won't need to improvise on anything and already leave everything done (to yk, i have kinda few responsibilities right now). It's been a time wasn't it? And i still didn't even made none of my ga-

My Models progression

well this is a long story to make, but everyday i've been making different models mostly with short breaks and this may sound very good at all, constantly updating my efforts on making my arts n thing. But it's not necessarily a good thing for me, due of it being so chaotic for my mind to create at the point. It has been a whole big high effort mess inside my head.

I'm not saying that so you could feel bad for me or anything remotely close to "Please take your time!" or something like that, no. I do take my time... With different things, it's kinda of like alot of things happening at once which I AM the blame of that, you know? mostly would be about making way too high effort art from Turbowarp to the point it either take straight up DAYS to even complete, which is why i took way too long to even post something that is not a blog instead of art, and is also why because i constantly want to share small parts of the model to basically remind you that i do make art but not... frequently posting it.

It does get more worrisome the fact i'm working on a team and i am the modeler so uhm, despite working on modeling, i don't focus on what i meant to be focusing on instead of other things, to the point that if you saw the image. Made the little clones inside my brain burn in hell, i'm sorry for em... BUT ANYWAY THIS POST IS GETTING TOO SAD FOR A CUTE BIRTHDAY POST-

For better moments of making high effort art for my own sake... here's a few sneak peaks on models (obviously i won't reveal the team i'm working on, and i'm too scared to ask the creator .-.)

aa... not much things at all, but still going for it! :D

Fnati 1.0 Another Revival?

oh yeah that game.

No, i did not cancel that game at all don't worry (i never cancel my games, just give them a long break until i feel like going back) it's just the fact that due of the last topic, i've been slowly forgetting about that game and i still own the... 9 followers, don't worry. I will give it to you as... as if i could get to have a feeling i could work on it, but it will not be cancelled AT ALL! And oh, might perhaps change thumbnail and banner, to you know, to give the game more style despite it being a fnati game

but what could it change for a revival? Not much really tbh, it's just my take on fnati 1.0, no plot twists, no hard difficult, just a silly fnati demo to enjoy. AS IF you're playing fnati 1.0 again... Even tho the 1.0 is bad- fnati 1.0 is bad guys, lets be real its really ba-

and i'm doing this remake for a friend aswell, i really don't wanna upset him :< (i'm not forced or anything, don't worry)

What's next for this 18 years?

this is going to be a trip, a purgatory of a trip. Cuz considering that i'm 18 years now, theres so many things i can do legally... like

asking for mcdonalds with my own credit card

pick a bus by myself

actually using platforms that got restricted by stupid ai thinking i'm a minor

and much more, perhaps even making some +18 arts? Not really INSTANTLY i got on my 18 nono, and DEFINITELY not post anything even remotely sexualized in here aswell. I'm not a fnia artist (... Well not anymore lol) but i will eventually get into more adult themes (not just like, lewd things but an art that teaches about taxes and how to get a professional life aswell, i'm not a degenerate c'mon! It's themes that adults like, no?)

what was also going to change is possibly the frequency of posts and modeling aswell, because i will get more into... jobs or studying in faculty soooo, that's mean i'm improving, right? Even tho i shouldn't worry about it being just a gamejolt account, it still gonna be something that will change my life, to good? To bad? Who knows?

And to give another announcement which may be a bad thing to few, good thing to few. But once i finish my full games like Fursona Field or any other FNAF fan game that i have on my list of fan games, i plan on leaving the fan game community to actually creating something original and quite on my taste. It's not you, it's me who had come with changes, i can't make a mouse scrolling game forever with ultra realistic animatronics trying yo kill you gor some reason y'know?? But i promise those games are gonna be good.

Same as cartoons i plan to make aswell that i will make sure not to sell merchandise like shirts with mascot on it nonono or original games with songs that basically tells the whole lore of the game in a more philosophical way, nonono. I have to go to the original path and make sure the product i deliver is good enough for you, same as good enough for me.

Fursona Field Progress

The demo doesn't have a defined date of when to come. But, i will try and make sure it releases atleast... This year, i still have time to model everything. I just need effort and motivation, i take my time! But on... Other... Things. Alot of planned moments and models concept has been on mind which for sure will make the game, a game about ZOMBIE FURSUITS slightly terrifying, but it won't be slash movie slop writing like a certain movie for sure it won't!

But to make sure everything is alright, here's a few screenshots of it, all the things included in each is a placeholder and some will change eventually.

You want a tip for your fnaf fan game in case you want to be slightly scary and less silly? ... No..? I will tell anyway! Make the rooms as liminal and dark but not too dark, and don't only put black shading, add a few colors shading. Ever heard of theory of colors? That.

Little message of me...

Now taking out the silly things i've showed you, this is now a more personal thing of mine. Perhaps the first time i'm venting, even tho you won't need to read the post. It's my birthday for god sake!

But ever since modeling was a thing of mine, i felt headaches and pressure not from people, but from myself to finish the model before i do anything else to the point i felt stuck with it. I like doing it, at the same time i want to take breaks but my own brain forces me to keep going even if takes a whole day to finish a single model, and considering the promises i made since you read the lasts topics of this posts i've feel kinda ashamed of myself cuz i promised people to make their things, but i end up not making it and basically "procrastinating" the whole time.

This is the part where people would send cute hugging gifs, or comment for me "take your time!" And things like that but, you see, i am taking my time... On other things, this is my issue, i can't choose on what exactly to work unless completely focusing on what to work on, as the same time not feeling like making that art i want to make which makes me much more ashamed than i am from working on that team, because at the same time i'm playing a game, i should be making a model a friend request me to!

Overall, for this 18 years i plan on developing better the skill of balancing hobby and working for someone or something. Which i believe would be a great step for my own person and life, without making me feel useless when not working on anything and just have my little things slowly, i hope you understand, and no need to comment "take your time!" Because i can tell you repeatedly, i am taking my time. But not on the thing i've been meant to work on....

Conclusion

This post may look like i'm not really happy about my birthday, but i really am! Finally and slowly becoming independent, while being the same silly Maned Wolf furry you all have mixed feelings. Really hope to try to be improving on my own person, I've been focusing too much on my art rather than my healthy being, that's about it!

And oh, one more thing...

here my oc :3