so you know how they want me to say sorry to @vyletbunni and @awesomegreen501 well If I do apologized I am afraid that they will taken control over my life which I do not want that, but I got a better way to solve this, and it's not by for me to apologize to them but to them not to judge or choose, and that kinda a fair way to do so, with my people on one side and there side on the other I afraid this will never end and they will never unban me, @gamejolt if your reading this, I'm sorry, I know that I done many thing that I shouldn't do and they shouldn't do it either, another thing that I want to mention is @awesomegreen501 has a therapist, but for me I only have several doctor from my end, I'm not saying that you want me to have a therapist, I'm already a therapist, and I learn it by ignoring it and move on, the next thing when I came to my thought is a lawyer, lawyer are not so cheap and have to pay alot of money to do so, and if I get a lawyer to clear out my name I'm worried that they do more misinformation, and ultimately being told of what to do in a self harm or hurt myself, that why I have to stay away from it, since @gamejolt would have to take a closer investigation onto it, also the user who use the report onto them was not being banned or timeout onto actual user I feel they are using bots to do so and not gonna lied that is a horrible way to do it, if they do not have many moderator then there screwed, which I feel disappointed of how bad is was in now days but on game banana on other hand has more moderation which I feel greatful that someone took this job seriously, finally the last thing I want to say if your reading this @vyletbunni and @awesomegreen501 , I'm sorry and I shouldn't or hadn't misgender both of you at all, and all of this of my work is for something at least that I can give you a chances, and I'll let you of who you wanted to be, and what about me you may ask, well this took me 3 and a half years to wait, but I'll figure something about it, and after all of this all over, I want to ask you a a promise and you must promise me that you will keep the past away from it, because I promise that I'll reach to the maturity and be a independences as or who I wanted to be and I'll respect on your choices, and if you say something that do not agree on, thats okay I get it but don't take this too personal.

anyways hope this could wrap up

bye