A new year has passed away. So I think I'll just go ahead and spit my thoughts into a post.

Reflections about a painful year.

Yeah. For me, this year has been such a challenge. I cannot say it is bad, since that would be too extreme, but many things have happened and have changed me as a man. Many people lost, many new friends done, lots of interesting things. I could finally get rid of my gender dysphoria (Which is something I have been years dragging) after months of therapy. I could finally start overcoming my depression. And I could finally get out from the cycle of cancelling games that I aswell have been dragging around for months.

I'm not going to draw myself as a victim here. I have aswell done a lot of bad things I am regretful for. I have been a shitty developer and person. I have said slurs I shouldn't, and I have been an asshole.

This year I am going to completely renovate myself. I'm not going to commit the same mistakes as before and I'm going to try to keep things as clean as possible, both morally and administrative ways.

I'm not going to be an idealist. I know that this new year is gonna be painful, hard and uncomfortable. But only through pain is how people evolve.

Thanks for sticking around and supporting me. Happy new year.