So, I'm doing absolute dogshit in school. I can't even keep my goddamn focus up for 5 minutes. I'm falling behind and all the family deaths that have happened recently really pushed me over the edge.

Today, one of my classmates (an ex-friend) tried getting my attention by throwing a plastic water bottle which was still full of water, at the back of my head. I wanted to explode in a fit of rage but i didn't. All i said was "damn :/" and went back to my music and getting my work done.

On top of that i have to put down the only time i socialise irl for a stupid graduation requirement. And bring my grade up. And do all this extra shit. I'm tired, I'm exhausted, I can't fucking work on school shit on my own i have to ask for help when I don't want to. I just want it over with already. I can't fucking do this anymore.

I need sleep but i don't even get that much sleep anymore. Nothing works for sleep anymore. I tried guys. I tried being the strong AnimeFan2.0 you all know. But I'm cracking here.

No one should have to listen to my babbling, and I'm sorry to everyone who is subjected to this post.

Have a lovely rest of your day/evening/night everyone.