Vent in Autistic Jolters Community

*sigh*

I feel so burnt out today...the autistic burnout is hittin' hard today folks.

I don't know anymore.

[TW: BLOOD] [VENT]

This scene from DHMIS represents my brain both earlier and now, how I was refusing to accept something and causing everything fall apart because of me, like a workplace accident.

https://youtu.be/i-sMXS-YdMg?si=usui2PztS22vK2OZ

[VENT POST]

This is how I felt last night when I was upset...god I'm so sorry for making such a huge scene then...

*sigh*

Here we go...gotta get this done with.

Sometimes the personality I show people disappears.

https://youtu.be/9UgLnWJFGHQ?si=-ZPfTnSMwo-RAffP

I hate this with every core of my being.

I have this weird fear of being infantilized just because I'm autistic.