general in Vents/therapy

I feel kind of bad

the last things me and my gf said on our recent phone call

gf: "call tomorrow?"

me: "sure, if i'm still alive by then."

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Had an argument with my auntie. Again..

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I'm just gonna vent real quick....

But I like being home alone since my dad isn't home, and he annoys me to no end, but at the same time, when I'm home alone it's extremely lonely and I can't focus on anything but my own.... Thoughts...

I was born.

I can't forget about my dad. everytime I look at his old vid of him being on tiktok made me tears up.

I want to be torn apart excruciatingly

I punish my body cause it's not good enough for me

The scary thoughts are spreading like a weed

The thoughts that say that I Deserve To Bleed!!!

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I feel depressed.