general in Vents/therapy

For venting or if you just need therapy
Ok, be real with me. Are you okay? Really okay?
For how long have you been on auto-pilot, telling others youre fine when youre hurting inside?
Now this is something i took a long time to understand, so get this:
You need to tell someone about your pain.
You are cared even if you dont realize it. Sometimes people dont see worth in the things they have until they lose it. Yes, its hard to cope with life when its so repetitive, but cant you see how precious it is? How precious you are?
Yes you are needed.
i just LOVE having a rare HAPPY moment between me and my brother
just for my mother to P!SS ME OFF and RUIN IT
i mean sure, i dont take care of myself, but YELLING AT ME DOESNT HELP
its called i lost my father when i was 9 so of course it fucked me up

Why have I tried to make myself a stone-heart person when I was 14..?
I'm... I'm really regreting from doing it right now... I want to feel normal...
Why love is a confusing feeling for me..? Just why..?
I feel kind of bad
the last things me and my gf said on our recent phone call
gf: "call tomorrow?"
me: "sure, if i'm still alive by then."

Had an argument with my auntie. Again..