Well how can I start, oh yes I remembered, I hadn't participated in the previous arrow event on the server because I didn't have an idea to make the drawing and the winners were unlimited and one more winner, so i decided to participate in the second event which is the submission event said that even a draft would win but i believed that if i made the submission i would win the submission event and finally i would have an art after years of following some speedpaint from the old vidia channel,yes i'm an old vidia fan and my dream is always to have At least an art made by vidia and by blits but that wasn't the case,i didn't know that the art had to be outstanding,expressive and with humor

I thought a simple art would be enough but no, when the winner was announced, I cried in church and I'm a catholic person, I felt like a disabled artist and this art lasted 9 hours, I find vidia arts very amazing but...I remembered the giveaway I tried to win before and I lost

I think the most difficult giveaway and art trades is toyhouse, you try to get that character in the final, it's someone else who tries.

I've been ignored by certain artists all because my art didn't match the artist's art in Toyhouse art trades and I felt left out.

I really needed to get this off my chest and tell you about it, I've been through similar cases both in giveaways on gamejolt and also in Toyhouse, I hope that in the next events of the vidia I can win and have an art from it at least

The azalis blitz events to have a canary toon that the character has silhouetted are more difficult because they require inviting friends and people on the servers and are usually more difficult because it is never possible to invite most friends and on servers and only a few try to help.

Problems in My irl:

Me,I've also made time because I have faults that I wish were better on my part, like hygiene, most of the time I forget to take a shower because I'm under pressure from college, I focus on some unlimited event and I also reply sometimes to DMs when there's more than one message, like long replies and I try to understand.

And my college exams once a month, and this May I had more difficulty than something good that were few.

Warning:Sensitive topics folks

Unexpected and unfixable problems

Well, the person I liked and I've known well since 2023, you've probably heard of SunFIRE right, well I considered him a crush and a very important person first day of May [May 1] I learned that he started dating someone probably this started in the month of April, I was very angry and dry, because the person I liked the most did not really like me and considered me just as his close friend

And yes, the person he's dating is a person I don't like, I'm not going to talk about whether or not this person has a sexuality or nicknames because for me this person isn't very important to me and I didn't have much of a friendship.

And even more so I had to hold back my tears so I wouldn't cry, but just remembering it is already a great weight on my heart, because we had a lot of personal stuff and even included personal photos shared, and everything I went through and I talked to sunFIRE that I thought seemed far beyond friendship, but it was just a friendship,I really liked sunFIRE until the moments I was watching the call transmissions on discord, then I learned what I said above and I suffered a lot and I had to oppress my feelings to defend my emotional feelings and remain neutral as if I had nothing special,

[Warning: this is an information alert for you who didn't know to be warned, I don't want to bother SunFIRE's friends and SunFIRE about this,thnxy for understand]

Notes to SunFIRE: please SunFIRE don't attack me, I just want to inform people who don't know what's going on and what happened with thunbmaker, something informative.

Serious and criminal problem with former sunFIRE thumbmaker

Well an artist that you probably saw a lot in the old SunFIRE videos, this artist originally called Peridonaut/Peri better known as Kaenlet [@KaenletKy ] talked to underage people and did terrible things and what he did is probably something of a case of pedophilia which is something criminal, I don't like prints of people who were victims because it was something sinister and unforgivable.

I used to be friends with thunbmaker, but I never liked the way this ex-best friend and former best friend seemed too exaggerated and forced after a while.

I started to see him more as a colleague because I began to dislike his art because there were always a few imperfect details that didn't go with the drawing and spoiled it.

And this artist has serious problems with NSFW content and even did NSFW sketches

Final comments:

If there's anything I've done wrong, let me know in the comments and now you know why I'm so slow with my drawings and why I disappear sometimes, but I hope you understand me and don't attack SunFIRE.

Anything I hope I find someone better who really appreciates me, understands me and really loves me, because I take a lot of time for my art and besides my art that I always look for content to show you, I also have my personal life of college and also spend time with my friends with games and group of friends in call

I'm always focused on just one thing like drawing, it makes me dizzy and very tired but I always do it when I feel like it and keep going.