I tried to contact you via many different direct messaging apps to speak about this privately but I have not gotten through to you, so I’ll just make this post.

(For clarification, Yes everyone, I, BitHell, was Expelled, I tricked everyone, fucked with everyone and I’m sorry, I was an untreated schizophrenic when I played that character, and this seriously conflicted with the way I acted, and what I found “funny.” even. Now I’m a treated schizophrenic, so we’ll see where that goes.)

I’ve felt bad ever since you made that twitter post regarding your experience and I admit it, the way I and even some of my team members acted was either immature or flat out fucked up, and our communication was shitty too.

I’m sorry for rejecting all of your ideas, even the good ones, I was just generally obsessed with recreating The Zero Hour work when you started working with us and so because I didn’t know what The Zero Hour even was or that any of your ideas were even connected with it, I rejected them, this might’ve made you feel unheard, and I’m sorry.

Though I’d be thrilled to work you again some day I don’t see that happening with the current circumstance of everything, and I understand that, I’m not gonna beg you or anything.

I also wanna use this post to address other people I’ve wronged.

@Piggie2023 : The lack of professionalism and just general edge and angst of the team drove you away, and I’m sorry, the team sucked complete ass back then and was full of degen losers

I thought your office was amazing, and the camera render you sent me actually inspired the final camera style for 1.0.

You’re a good man, and I’m sorry about what happened.

@VixDev : I was so fucking jealous of your game back then, you had so many followers, and such high quality assets compared to what I made, it made me immaturely freak out about you all the time, and I’m sorry, nowadays I’d like to peacefully co-exist with your game.

Right now I think your game looks pretty good.

(Side-note: I swear on everything I did not copy the lamp from your office for Gateway’s office. I genuinely did not mean to copy you, it was purely accidental and I’m fairly certain it was just a coincidence, I took that prop from an old map test I made and just threw it on the table there.)

@Joke_ : You were quite literally one of my biggest opps back then, and all because of your opposition to the remaster being on the wiki, now that all that shit is removed, I’d like to make amends, or hell even just not be opps.

Even I admit now, the shit I was adding was just that, shit, looking back I wholly understand your position, hell, even current remastered 1.0 looks kinda bad in my opinion.

@Nocturnum : I have harassed you for YEARS and that ruined any possibility of a healthy co-existence.

I promise you, I am NOT a Honkotoid, maybe I was back then but I certainly am not now, I made a terrible mistake ever trusting him, could I please have my name removed from all Radiance blacklists, I am NOT working with that scumbag and I do NOT plan on regressing on that.

Also sorry about the whole “Knockin’” thing, I was an untreated schizoid who wanted to stir up pointless shitty drama for no reason.

@Speedorsm : I genuinely do enjoy your content and I regret every day the way I acted towards you, also I realized too late that you didn’t really fit the character I’d assigned to you, therefore leading you on, and I’m sorry for that.

I’m trying to change, and I think I have changed and grown from who I was when I started, and I want to move on and make genuinely great things.

-Brandon (BitHell/Expelled)