and then the internet, oh the cruel, relentless internet. its insane how much has fucking happened to me on here. I can't fucking tell if people are pedophiles or not. artymik seems cool but is prolly a pedo and I don't even fucking know about chris at all im going insane over this. and the COUNTLESS amount of r-pe threats ive gotten for literally saying hi/existing is fucking scary. ive been fucking doxxed due to me being trans. every single motherfucking time I try to mention im trans I get a swamp of people calling me slurs and telling me to kill myself, and to those who said that, MAN I REALLY WANT TO. this is such a shitty fucking existence. however no one thinks im sad because I always have the happy fucking pfp on. in real life im getting verbally abused every day and I can't fucking handle it. oh, and I barely ever cry unless im in a really, really bad situation. I barely ever cry about my own issues. im a wreck and as ive mentioned my parents have not set up any therapy for me until like this year but my fucking brain won't let me fucking say any of this to the therapist. I need help but can't get it. im in shambles.