Want to be fully honest about this.

NOT HURTED BUT SICK.

This is literally sickening me too much whenever its about this site and especially people that don't really understand my decisions where I don't feel comfortable from continuing some friendships (this also comes to a creator) or having up tones to then straight up blocking me. As much I want to be serious about one thing that this place never healed me or healed my life during the time i was spreading positivity. I'm not the same person that you would believe me to be and what I mean from that is being supportive often or specifically that anyone only reach me just for supports without anything else in those conversations, it gets too much exhausting. I love being honest and prefering to be normal more while stepping back or moving on from stuffs.

Once again i'm not someone that is really open from making friendships and especially being a person who is attentive, serious and honest when it comes to some stuffs that either gets too far or not taking things seriously so i prefer having people that ik in life. I did end some friendships because of me not feeling comfortable from continuing them and that i didn't had my trust on some anymore (i don't really trust anyone that easily or not fully anyway) but yet again those people just take it negatively to then blocking me, which idrc about it.

Didn't mind much from becoming an adult cuz I remain the same person that i am except stepping back from some things. Prefer being myself and especially honest/serious. I love being myself in those ways and if you don't accept, respect or understand decisions then its not my problem.

FUTURE AND SPEAKING LANGUAGES.

Once again i'm literally sick on going in this site but its me keeping those communities alive and especially managing them from featuring contents without being obbligated or forced from people.

Second thing. I would be down from being someone that fully speaks both deutsch and spanish, especially deutsch. English has been this never-ending nightmare from my life when it comes to myself using wrong words or missing some words that need to be in some messages but especially that idrk what to say next while trying to keep some convos up, then i'm completely forgetting how to speak italian that much due of me speaking english everywhere.

Third. Really want to focus more on life than having socials around me and especially having the people that are the most realest true friends in my life. Relationships? Dunno.

ONE LAST THING.

I believe that some socials should only have people that have been closests or irl in your life so if you still want to message me, you won't gain a response back cause i'm tired to be on this site and I don't feel comfortable from talking in here while cleaning more contacts from here and Discord.

10+ contacts is what I want and those are people that I fully know enough from being most true closests & pookies/irl in life like @KathyChow , @blurryspirits , @Gregggg , @bluewit , @SonicBlastYT , @MewMarissa , @Dave_Microwaves_Games , @myopicveracity , @LassVuLupine , @st4rg1rl_ , @kukworks , @delilah_ , @LUNAR_SKI3S and @LilianDuleroux (including @Nextlevelart via comments while supporting her). Ik those people somewhere else more than here like those are real people in my life so this place doesn't mean a thing to me. If anything i was too much glad from meeting them all 🫶🏻

So yes. Nothing much from me to say but i'm literally sick, alright? Literally sick about everything socially and my decision was myself keeping people that ik too long enough without having anyone that aren't closests or irl unless some wants supports so that's it. I just don't want to be associated with anyone else i knew for one year anymore unless having the people that means more than too much in this world from the bottom of my heart like those people. There is still more dms on Discord that i have to clean since i don't feel comfortable from some people anymore once again.

But I want you to know one thing. You make this world much more better from anything you do and especially being yourself with your presence that can make anyone feel better whenever you are here.

So once again. You won't see me here anymore unless managing communities. I do feel sorry from cleaning almost everyone but as I said i believe that socials should only need people that you know in life and from being the ones that are closests to you imo. My contacts shouldn't be anything uncomfortable and being too much impatient or anything else that can hurt others cause those moves makes me want to not have some anymore.

How to conclude this? Simple : Have healthy and comfortable friendships/relationships and don't be forced from anyone reaching you just because you are a mod in your communities. Do not block for stupid reasons like people not feeling comfortable on some friendships and because of them unfollowing you, which are smallest things to be pissed and its doesn't even make sense.

So yea, it wasn't much good until it lasted and no, i'm not back. Don't have hopes about that.