Often when we talked, he would use "~" and he'd do the blushing emoticon, "0//////0" or "-/////-" when we'd have normal conversations, or I would send a hug gif.

I remember vaguely the time I had added him on discord, and I said I was going to get on Voice Chat, hang out a bit, maybe just be goofy, y'know- the usual, and he said "I can't wait to hear your beautiful voice, princess!~"

I didn't know how to respond, really, so I just said.. "Yeah! :3"

and joined VC.

Before he joined, he told me that his mic was a little messed up. I said okay, no worries, because; it happens, you know?

When he joined the call, he said "Hello lils~"

and I just... Couldn't talk. at all. I was completely speechless, and like- I just froze. I didn't know what to do, or what to say.

So, I assume he thought I was not on the call, and he left.

My heart was racing, and I could hardly breathe. I was terrified. I don't remember the last time I've actually talked to a full-grown man I don't know that well, and it brought back some past trauma.

And I have my suspicions that he's the one who started the entire "Zip x Lils" shit, and I actually had a breakdown the time that that was going on. I didn't like it, it creeped me out, and it scared me. It scared me because, he might have actually taken the idea into consideration and force himself onto me. Mind you, back then, I was naive, and not in the best mental state; All I cared about was being a people pleaser and making others happy no matter what.

Thats my experience. Thank you for reading.