WHY? WHY IS MY SISTER'S BIRTHDAY ALWAYS FULL AND FULL OF BIRTHDAY GIFTS? WHY DO I GET NOTHING WHEN IT'S MY BIRTHDAY, NOT EVEN A WISH? (IRL) WHY DID NO ONE CARE THEN? WHY DO I HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THEM ON THEIR SPECIAL OCCASIONS? WHY DO THEY USE THAT EXCUSE TO GET WHAT THEY WANT? Everything is unfair, I always have to give in, always have to accept this and that, while no one else cares for me. I'm nothing special, it's all about their needs.

Normally, when I'm on Game Jolt, I interact and talk a lot, believe me... but in real life, I'm like an autistic person in my family, nobody listens,; they only want me to listen to them when they need me, but they never listen when I need them. And do you understand the feeling of losing someone you've been close to for a very long time, and then, just because you betray someone close to that person (because I hate them), you lose a good relationship because of a misunderstanding? I really don't understand what they want or think about me. I really need some peace right now, but I can't have that.

THERE ARE TIMES WHEN I HAVE ENOUGH COURAGE TO COMFORT OTHERS BUT NOT MYSELF... I SERIOUSLY LACK COMFORT FOR MYSELF...

I JUST WANT TO LOCK MYSELF IN THE SHADOWS, WITHOUT CONTACT OR TALKING TO ANYONE...JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!.....