Yknow, you should take it easy, dont be too hard on yourself, dont overdo it, push yourself to limiits and past it. Its really important that you recognize your condition; human. You werent born knowing, werent born perfect, you were born and began to learn, day by day, so dont try to give yourself burnout, do each task day by day, force yourself to schedule, because the thing about recognizing the being human part is that its all about practicing self care, self love, that is, to let yourself rest when you need, to organize your room, to take a good bath, to eat real food, to exercise. Its essential that you understand that, yes, you do need to do whatever it is that's due, but it doesnt mean you throw your health asides. The point i want to get is that you need to accept yourself, see the problems you have in life, analyse them critically and take some conclusion, maybe a solution, to them,if you cant, its fine. Just know that past actions, things youve done that replay over and over again, dont define you, neither does the voices in your head, because the only thing that can really define you is what you do every day, and to win a everyday fight with yourself in your head is enough, every individual has its limits, and its unfair for yourself to compare yourself with others, who have a different life, different circustances that has lead them to where they are them, which doesnt even mean they are happy. So, to conclude, i just wanna finish with a friendly reminder, that you deserve love, from other, and specially from yourself, and remember that even if you think that no one loves you, remember, thoughts are thoughts, they idealize and create fiction to protect, but they arent true, that's the trap, if you believe them, you'll end in an vicious cycle of misery, where you want better but something makes you also want to do nothing to really get you out. Remember to always seek help, therapy, or someone trusted for you to talk to, and that human connection, like this one, is worth way more than talking to c.ai chatbots