I realized that I was ignoring my friend because I was thinking something and I was having suicidal thoughts today. She asked if I wanted a hug but I didn't hear her and she tould her mom abt it and her mom tould my parents and then my parents told me so I told my parents what I was thinking (besides the suicidal thoughts) and my anxiety got worse...

I committed self harm more often this month and I hanged myself...

I realized smth too.

In 2022 when COVID was over we could take off our masks i never did though because I was insecure they would see what my face looked like..

In 2024 (before I had gamejolt and stuff) I never took off my sweaters in jackets because I didn't want them to see my body like my arms because I was insecure..

My PTSD is just getting worse and I can't stop thinking about it..

I FEEL LIKE A FUCKING HORRIBLE FRIEND RIGHT NOW STILL AND ALL IM DOING IS HUGGING A FUCKING STUFF ANIMAL BECAUSE NOBODY WILL HUG ME IRL AT THIS POINT..

I'm planning on killing myself soon.