So, one thing is I wanted to say I'm grateful for everyone this year. My brothers, sister, parents, new and old friends.

Had some fun this year, gaming sessions and art improvements, well hanging out with friends heh. Despite this year being, well for me at least, not the greatest. Though the worse when it comes to my mental state. In a nutshell, for about 4 months I had numb moods and feeling like people around me didn't care.

Despite everything that happened this year, I'm ok. Not in the best I could be, this year took a bit of a toll on me but I'm ok. I am tired though, honestly. Close to burnout right now. I need a break for a little while. As much as I'd love to say it's just burnout, I've been trying to suppress my emotions too. For the past few weeks or so, mentally going around and thoughts I've kept to myself because I want to be strong for others.

So starting in January, well after my birthday, I'll take a week or two off. [What when's my birthday? What why do you need to know-] I won't leave the platform entirely, I just need some time. I don't want to be like how I was early this year. I don't know if I'll ever be exactly the same as before but I don't want to get worse. If not for myself than for my friends and family, those who care.

Anyway I guess that's one my main goals starting for next year. Hopefully 2025 will be better than this year was. I'm not optimistic about that but we'll see.

For the ups and downs this year has had, I'm glad I had the support I did. New friends I've made, the moments shared and memories to remember. Until next year.