So, I'm not really sure if this kind of post is necessary but, I need to get this off my chest. My mental health hasn't exactly been trucking along very well, both for reasons out of my control and not.

I want to keep this short but, a lot of my problems are caused by me, this gal right here. Obviously won't be naming names here, but I've done an exceptional job at pushing people away from me and somehow not understanding how badly I messed up until a while afterwards.

It's one of my worst traits and I genially hope that when I turn 17, that I can work towards stomping it out. The amount of really cool people that I've had step away from me because of my own stupid actions is too many to count at this point.

It makes me feel like I'm walking on eggshells when talking to people, and that If I say one wrong word or one wrong thing, that that's the end of the road. I guess you could call it paranoia, pessimism, whatever.

Because of all this and a couple of other things, I've never felt this alone and detached in my life. I can't really stop waking up and thinking about all the mistakes I've mad all the wrong choices I chose, etc.

It's kinda suffocating and it's not how I want to live, not anymore. What I'm trying to get at here is, somethings gotta give. I still want to keep making games, editing, talking to people, etc. But If I don't take a different route, if I don't do anything to fix this, I know where I'll end up.

Things will be slowing down now, and that's for the best. Thank y'all for the support, it's just gonna be a while now. I'm sorry for everything.

Cya on the flipside, take care, all of you