(Sorry, I know it's annoying to read a bunch of shit. Especially about my feelings. I just get really upset and stuff when I'm tired..)

School is an entire shitshow. I wish I never transfered.

There's this weird ass kid I knew back in elementary, and he's nothing like he used to be. I think he's delusional or some shit because he talks about seeing the grim reaper, and my friends always tell me he's beat his girlfriends up and that he gives his next victims lollipops. HE GIVES ME THEM EVERY DAY. EVERY. DAY. Not that I'm complaining, but I'm going to be a VICTIM. He's fucking weird, but smart as hell. I ask him questions during math to help me, but I genuinely don't like him. And I can't stop talking to him because HE'S in all my core classes. All of them. 1st 2nd and 3rd. He always asks me about how my relationships are going; like why is it your concern? Back off. This girl asked too, she was like: "Can I see a picture of your girlfriend? I want to know who I'm competing with."

..

YOU'RE NOT COMPETING WITH ANYONE. WHAT THE FUCK.

and she always touches me, and I don't like it. For the ones that know, I don't like being touched without warning or indication. Nor do I like my wrist being held (flashbacks).

The school gives us shitty small lunches. I had 3 tiny tenders and diced pears. THE HELL KIND OF LUNCH IS THAT.

And then these tests. It's only the 5th week of school and we already have tests and shit.

Tomorrow is picture day.

I don't get enough sleep.

I'm tired.

I'm drained.

And then the stress of knowing I have to upload so I don't loose followers is another weight on my shoulder.

Hell; I don't think half of my friends like me anymore or really know who I am.

I miss having energy.

I miss not worrying about tests constantly.

I miss my LIFE. I feel enslaved.

My friend has been trying to off herself the past 3 days, that's more stress.

I really just want to get away from the world, go to a forest and just relax with music. That's all I ask for. I just want peace.

I want to be myself again.

I'm not who I used to be. I miss that. Dearly.

Anyway, sorry for the vent. Just needed to get this off my chest.

(SIDENOTE: To any friends I have and they see this, please don't bring this up. I don't want to talk about it anymore. The only thing that matters is that you read this far.)